My journey has become an exploration of myself that started in my mid 20’s. I later delved into NLP and hypnotherapy which did serve me at the time, however it was not until I started working with the body that huge changes started taking place.
I know that the body never lies, everything is stored here and bringing consciousness and attention to everything that is going on in my body is key. I also feel that I don’t need to know and learn new things, the less I do and the more I drop into myself the more I start to remember who I really am.
And let me say it is not an easy journey. To stay true to myself I had to start doing things I really didn’t want to do. Being a people pleaser it was easier to say yes and do whatever was wanted than staying with the guilt I felt when saying no. But by saying yes I was saying no to myself and every time I did that I lost a little more of myself.
The deeper I dig into all the things I have stuffed deep in my unconscious the more I have to own these and share them with others to rid the shame I feel around them. I went most of my life thinking I had no anger in me, that I was compassion and love. Yes I am that but I also have anger and rage and it feels good to own that too.
I have gone from looking at others to heal me, and in some ways been violated and re traumatised, to knowing that I have all the resources I need to heal myself. I know that there is nothing wrong with me I am here learning and expanding every day. All the people that come into my life are showing me my own darkness and light.
I truly do believe that we are here to evolve and grow, individually and collectively. Like every living thing once we stop growing we die.
This journey has opened my heart so much and made me realise this is my soul's purpose.
I believe our bodies long to heal and that the universe is constantly sending us healing opportunities. So if you are reading this maybe the universe is telling you that I can help you. Or you might not yet be ready and thats okay too.